Wild Horses

I feel these 4 walls closing in
My face up against the glass
I’m looking out… hmm
Is this my life I’m wondering
It happened so fast
How do I turn this thing around
Is this the bed I chose to make
Its greener pastures I’m thinking about hmm
Wide open spaces far away

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but, not feel scared

[Chorus:]
Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I’ll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love, like I’m longing to
I Wanna run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses!
Oh yeah yea

I see the girl I wanna be
Riding bare back, care free along the shore
If only that someone was me
Jumping head first headlong without a thought
To act and damn the consequence
How I wish it could be that easy
But fear surrounds me like a fence
I wanna break free

All I want is the wind in my hair
To face the fear but, not feel scared

[Chorus:]
Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I’ll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love, like I’m longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses!
I wanna run too.
Breaklessly abandoning my self before you

I wanna open up my heart tell him how I feel

[Chorus:]
Wild horses I wanna be like you
Throwing caution to the wind
I’ll run free too
Wish I could recklessly love, like I’m longing to
I wanna run with the wild horses, run with the wild horses!
I wanna run with the wild horses

 Valerie introduced this song to me a long time ago. Imagine this picture I’m gonna paint for you xD   Blue Sky. Green Meadows. Flowers everywhere. You as a Wild Stallion running. With the wind blowing your manes. Hm… Doesn’t it make you feel like you can do anything? It’s like we are free. Not bound to any restrictions. Free to do anything. At least till you’re caught by riders. Heh heh~

Now, why am I typing this? Basically, I think it suits me now. My high school life ended and I’m free to explore the whole world, the whole universe and of course ransack my house’s fridge for food. Hehe~ I’m finally free to explore my options and I’m not really ecstatic about it. I thought I would be glad but I’m actually not. I miss my friends.

Miss, is the understatement. I’m the kind of guy who doesn’t really appreciates things until it’s nearly too late. Since young, I didn’t really appreciate friends. I had an unlimited flow of friends. Even when I when to high school, I wasn’t really afraid of being friendless as I had the ‘making-friends-touch’. Notice I use the word had. It is because, I think I lost that touch. Over the years, my friends although have became more and more, but I’ve always stuck to my good old gangs. Gangs like the Tzi Jia gang (Tzi Jia, Ke Shin, Soon Khai and the newly added 2007 Sotong, aka Pei Shan), Choir gang (Too many liao xD) and of course the Canteen gang (Valerie, Kit Ying, Jun Wen, Jun Jie, Chee Hung). My life last year and this year basically revolves around them. And I’m leaving all of those 2 years of friends behind. Imagine the memories made within the 2 years time frame. That’s a lot. I’m kinda afraid I wouldn’t be able to find my own gang in college. I might be an outcast. I can’t!!! I need to have a social life. I yearn to socialize. It’s a part of me.

Enough of ranting already before I get all teary eyed xD I guess I’ll end this blog here. Till then~~

 Wild Horses, I wanna be like you~~~~~~~~~

Empty

The feeling of hollowness has struck me again.  A few days ago, I was franctically studying like a headless chicken trying to find a worm. But now, I have nothing to do. So free. So empty. So full of nothingness. I know during the exam I wished I was bored. But now after the exams (Although I still have 1 chinese paper), I wished I was busy. I guess the grass is always greener on the other side (Or the moon is always rounder on the other side xD). But then again, I wouldn’t want to go through all the hassle of taking my SPM exams again.

You know what? I kinda miss school. No. I’m not out of my mind.  I miss my friends. I miss some teachers that I spend time arguing with (For example Fei Poh Ong Kee Lian and Wee Wang Wang Tan Saw Bee xD). This, too, contributes to the feeling of emptyness. However, I’ll be going to school later for Choir Practice. Hehe~ So, I guess the feeling of emptyness will be gone then as I’m among friend, again, although it is just for a short while. But sweet memories are always formed in a short period of time, isn’t it?

I know I should be studying for my chinese as my chinese sucks. You’ll probably have better luck in teaching a pig to fly than passing my chinese. But if I get an A for my chinese, I won’t be Raymond. Hehe~~

It’s time for me to hit some college websites. Gotta think for my future. Till then~~~

SPM… Sijil Pergi Mati

This is indeed a ‘Sijil Pergi Mati’ exam. After taking a test for 1 hour or so, I would feel like just throwing down the pen, run out of the classroom and jump down the building. Hehe. I always feel suicidal during exams. Can someone come into my school and create a massacre? Just kill me. xD

I swear that I won’t touch Chemistry EVER AGAIN!!!! Gosh. Chemistry paper 2 was like so damn hard! I don’t even know what the question wanted. It might as well be written in Greek. But then again, some part of chemistry is indeed Greek. Hehe. Why did God ever invented this subject? Chemistry. It kills. By just looking at the word, you know it spells trouble. And my chemistry teacher says that chemistry is ‘easy’. Bah! Hambug.

It seems that the Add Maths test paper was being leaked out. Why would anyone wants to buy Add Maths test paper…. It is kinda easy. At least to me. Wakaka~~ Yeah. I do sound arrogant there. But I wouldn’t ever buy leaked paper. It’s so unfair. Here we are reading our books like if-we-don’t-finish-it-we-will-be-toast. And there they are ‘goyang’-ing their feet and sleeping peacefully. Someone! PUNISH THEM!!!

I guess it’s time for me to hit the books, again. Like you say Johnny, I don’t need luck. I need MIRACLES!!!

End of my High School Life

Name: High School Life
Born: January 2003
“Died”: 7th November 2007
R.I.P

My high school life has ended. I still remember the first time I stepped into Chong Hwa. How I hated this school. I learnt that hate can blossom into love. When I was form 1, I wanted to get out from CH asap. Now, I’m form 5. I finally got what I want. But, is that really what I want? Do I really want to leave Chong Hwa? No. I don’t want. I don’t want to leave my school. I don’t want to leave my second home, choir. I know. I have the option to study form 6. But, I don’t think I can cope with Chinese. I made a huge step in deciding to study at CH. It’s time for me to leave. 5 years in CH. 5 years of memories. 5 years of love/hate relationship. All left of it are memories.

Life in CH is really wonderful. I have loads of friends that leads to heaps of memories. All these memories, I will bring it with me at all times. I shall always remember all of my friends. It’s only been a few days after the last day of school (Not counting SPM). However, I’ve already started to feel hollow. It’s like I’ve lost a part of me. A feeling of lonelyness is creeping upon me. And I have to fend it of by myself, with my memories as my weapon.  

Soon, it will be time for me to step into college/uni life. That is another great step for me. Another story to go down in ‘The Saga Of My Life’. Of that, I will be reminising again 4-5 years later. Hopefully, I will make as many friends as I did in high school.

I have a confession to make. I do not hate 5S3 anymore. It’s the best class a guy could ever have. I’ve learnt to love my class instead of hating my class, like I did when the year started. 5s3 will always be in my mind. I will never forget the things we did together. Friends forever!!!

Monday, is the dreaded day of the year. Yes. It’s signifies the start of SPM (Sijil Pergi Mati). I hope to do well in this exam so that I can qualify to a good college and have a bright FUTURE!! W00H00!! Wish me luck guys!!!

To all who are taking SPM this year, GOOD LUCK!!!

 

 

Raymond

 

PS: http://www.friendster.com/giomanach  There are many photos (Memories) there. Go take a look!