I’m Missing You

Choir camp started and ended. My life as a choir member is a fun one. I can’t get myself to use the word ‘was’. I love my choir. Choir is where my heart is. Choir is my second home. I can’t believe that I won’t be practising songs every first recess next year already. Although I didn’t really cried during the ‘Farewell Party’ held in honour of school leavers, I was crying in my heart. I will miss choir a lot. My friends, my memories will always be in my heart forever.

The first day of choir we played with water. It was damn fun. We would sneak up to people and pour bowls or even buckets of water on people. To top it up, we were playing in the rain too. We were wet, wet wet!!!! At night before a small discussion for a show we are supposed to put on 2 days later, a few guys (including me) told ghost stories in the male hostel (Room 503). We were so scared that everyone ran out of the room together when we were supposed to meet up with the rest of the choir members. We were so dumb. Next, this group of people and some other people including girls went to the ‘haunted place’ in our school. It’s a building which is shaped like a hexagon. Legend says that a long time ago, there was a tree full of human heads in the middle of the building (The middle of the building is an open area). We walked around the building. When we reached the staircase, we didn’t know there were people walking down. As we were already scared, we screamed like mad and ran off. We laughed a lot after that. Next, we went to the classroom and chatted a lot. We chatted about ghost, aliens and many other stuff. Got a lot of new information there. At night in the male hostel (Room 503 yet again), the ghost story session started again.

The second day of choir was just okay. We had to listen to a teacher give a talk on how to ‘open your voice’. I nearly slept through that. We played games too. It was fun but it’s kinda hard to describe it with words. The day ended with us playing cards and sleeping…

The third day of choir was FUN! Full of memories…. We were supposed to do acts. There are 9 groups and each group acted. Some were funny, but my group’s act was kinda touching. We talked about hunger in Africa. I heard some people cried. Success xD Most of the acts were dirty. We laughed like hyenas. At night was the party for us school leavers. Guess what? All the school leavers have to wear pretty pretty girls clothes. And that includes us guys. EEWWWwwww….. xD We even had to put in fake boobs made out of tissue paper and newspaper. We did the catwalk and everything. It was fun. After the whole ‘ordeal’, it was time to cry. School leavers went out to the stage to share our thoughts. Many of us cried. I was teary eyed when it was my turn to talk. And Valerie was at my side. She kept telling me to express my love to ’someone’, which I can’t. Because before that, someone expressed his love to his love and they got together. A relationship was born. I can’t be a copycat, can I? Back at the male hostel, a group of my close friends and me chatted outside. We chatted a lot. Around 1am, we went back to the room and saw that they were still playing cards. So, we played a while too. When we wanted to sleep, Mou Zheng (A guy from another room but came into our room to sleep) said we can’t sleep. Jian Sheng, Desann and him will ‘body’ the person who sleeps. What is ‘body’? Basically, the person who is at the bottom is the person who is ‘bodied’. People will stack up on him and literally suffocate him. I was ‘bodied’ twice. But at around 2.30am till 3am, we all started to sleep as we were tired.

The last day of choir. We took a lot of photos for memories. At the end, the thoughts sharing continued as there were people who didn’t managed to share their thoughts last night. Next, all the school leavers went up and sang our camp song, the first dance and my number one friend. We all cried and hugged. Some members who aren’t leaving came up to us and cried with us. It was really emotional. We sheded many tears….

Time for me to disappear and shed more tears….

The Last Day of “Death’s Certificate”

Today is the last day of Sijl Pergi Mati, or Death’s certificate, aka our exam, SPM. We should be happy today, right? I’m happy. Damn. Who the hell am I kidding. I’m not that happy. It’s my last day in my school uniform in Chong Hwa. I’m entitled to feeling a little down.

 I spent the last few precious seconds, minutes, hours with Jie Ying and Jun Wen and Hui Ping. First, we went to secret recipe for 2 pieces of cake and I took the liberty of ordering an ice blended cappucino which they (excluding Hui Ping) happily drink it before my mouth even got to the straw. And to think that I paid RM8.90 for it. I pestered them to go eat an early dinner with me as it’s my last day and I need friends with me. So, we went to Batu 5 and ate at a chinese restaurant. Nothing much to say there.

But the sweet thing was, Jun Wen took some Tau-Fu for me and put it on my plate. Aw…. I might just become gay to love him. Hehe. After reaching home, I sms-ed Jun Wen and Jie Ying just to thank them for accompanying me today. Guess what. I managed to make Jie Ying cry because I kept reminding her that I will be leaving. She pleaded me to stay but I can’t stay. I’m so damn sorry.

I’ll just be a little straight here. One of the reasons I’m leaving Chong Hwa is because I can’t stand their stupid computer subject that is in freaking chinese. My chinese is so damn bad that I believe dogs can speak mandrin better than me. Another great reason is… This reason is so great that i think i should get an award for it. It is… love. Well, I love someone and it’s kinda something like a forbidden love. So, I have to leave to run away from it. Yeah, I know. Dumb… Or as Ceci would put it, “Poo Poo Head”.

Well, I guess this is how I kinda ended my High School Life. Of course, i will be damn busy this December. Hehe. All the best to me. Till then, ciao~